You know, it’s always hard to know what the balance between sharing personal information on my blog and keeping things to myself. Over the years, I’ve actually shared a lot but it’s typically good news, or things that I don’t think are so personal that they can’t be shared. When I read blogs, I also like a bit of the personal – it gives me a sense of who the blog writer is and I like to peek into other people’s lives when they let me. So I thought I’d share a little bit of my personal life today – but if you don’t want to read it, look for the knitting picture and move on from there!
I think I may have mentioned our up and downs with Cieara. In the last year, we had a lot of problems working together as a parents/children should, and it culminated last week in her moving out. It was a blow up and wasn’t planned but I think for now she’s going to stay where she is. So we are facing so many things all at once, so suddenly, that its sort of hard for everyone. We are worried about her – making bad decisions, not planning for the future – you know, all the things some 18-year-old kids do. I myself made some bad decisions at the same age, so I know how it is. She’s safe, and she’s still going to school and should be graduating next week, but its hard to not have her here. Lines of communication are damaged but I’m hopeful that we will be able to fix that and at least keep talking to her and keep some connections. There isn’t much we can do right now to change her mind – she’s 18, and she is determined to go her own way, but so hard as a parent to let go.
For us, we went from being parents with children at home to empty nester’s in a 24 hour period. And it’s really weird. Andrew is visiting right now so I think some of the impact isn’t felt yet, but it already feels odd. All of a sudden, after 25 years, I don’t have children to take care of. And I finally get why some parents have a hard time with this – in the past I never really understood it. I mean, who wouldn’t like the freedom of just being a couple after all this time of raising kids? Now that I’m looking at it – it’s just so weird and odd that I think I’m going to have to adjust slowly. Larry and I are both busy with work, hobbies, the house, and all that. We have things we do together and things we do alone. So that’s all good. And I think we’ll be fine – but it is just so weird and I feel a little bit sad when I think about it.
So there you go – that’s the little bit of personal on today’s post. I hope that it wasn’t too bad – and if you have any thoughts or advice, you know I’m always looking for input!
OK, for those of you that skipped the personal and came for knitting.
I had a bad case of startitis last week – so much so that I actually went out and bought yarn to do it! I don’t know why, I don’t remember how this came to my attention last week, but I came across the pattern for the Peaks Island Hood and all of a sudden I just wanted to make it. I had seen the pattern when it first came out and queued it, but for some reason, seeing it again just charged up my knitting mojo and I just had to start it. Because the perfect time to make a heavy wool scarf/hood is in June!
I didn’t have the yarn I wanted to use in the stash, so I went to the Loopy Ewe and ordered some Cascade 220. I love this yarn – I think its one of the most perfect yarns. It feels so good, and I love the practicality of it – its relatively inexpensive, comes in a lot of colors and has a lot of yardage. I picked the blue because I thought it would look nice with my coat – and because I was in one of those moods where I wanted to keep close to the original pattern.
Miles and miles of seed stitch. I can’t say that its my favorite stitch to do but I love the texture of it – this is so soft and squishy, and its going to be so warm next winter. And its a great project to have while driving, knitting or just when you don’t have the mental capacity to do anything complicated. I’m enjoying it and for now its bumped all of the other projects off my active list.
Its June – I can’t believe how fast time is going – it seems like it was just January and snowing! I need to go find a farm stand and buy fresh strawberries. Because Penny ate most of ours – we only have this little crop right now..
I have a three-day weekend this weekend again – I have to go have some oral surgery done today. And I got a reminder that I have a mammogram scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. Honestly – does that sound like a fun weekend? I suppose, though, that its ok. These are things I have to take care of and at least I’ll have some of the weekend to enjoy
OK, off to the oral surgeon’s – have a good weekend!