OK, just a warning – this post may be a little whiny.
I took today off to spend some time with Andrew before he goes back to school. He’s planning on spending the summer in Maryland, interning or working, so I know that my time with him is going to become more and more limited. But I also scheduled my MRI for this morning because he doesn’t wake up early, and I figured I’d be back before he was even awake. I got up in plenty of time, had a little yogurt for breakfast and was off to the hospital. When I got there, I waited for a bit, and then went back. All was well until the technician said “you didn’t eat anything this morning, right?”. Um…no one had said not to. Sure, maybe I should have figured this out by myself – but I didn’t. So she couldn’t do the test. I wasn’t too happy about it – but they were nice and squeezed me in this afternoon – so I had to go home, wait, and then go back. And not eat or drink anything. So instead of getting this over with this morning, it ended up taking most of the day.
I had a MRI last year when I had knee surgery – and it didn’t seem too bad. I honestly couldn’t figure out why people freaked out about them – but I get it now. When I had the MRI last year, I only went into the machine feet first up to my hips, and most of me was outside. Today I went head first…and wow. When they first sent me in the machine, I had my eyes closed. I opened them when the motion stopped – and was immediately panic striken. I have never been claustrophic, but damn! The machine was so close, and there was no room. I started to feel myself freak out…so I closed my eyes again, and started thinking of other things. I thought about knitting and just visualized myself knitting. It immediately calmed me down and I felt better. I continued to keep my eyes close (with the occasional peek – I could see the room from the very top of my vision), and kept on visualizing things that were calm – knitting, yarn, walking the dogs, walking in the woods. Finally it was over and they were pulling me out. I mentioned my initial panic to the technician, and she admited that she freaked out in it too. I really hope that this is the last time I have to do it – but if not, I know how to get through it!
Afterwards, I did get to go to the mall with Andrew and Larry so it all wasn’t bad. Just not the day off I had imagined.
I’ve been working on my lace scarf this week – needed a change from the socks. I resisted starting a new project – I do want to finish something before I start something else. And my queue is pretty long – so I probably should look through that before deciding on what’s next (I’ve been thinking more an more about a spring sweater).
I really do love this yarn (Malabrigo lace) and the pattern (On the Vine). I think I should be done with this in the next few days, and I think its going to be pretty when its done. I am wondering if I’m doing the nupps right right way – they don’t seem to show up that much, but I am going to see what happens when I block it out. This is going to be a fantasic spring scarf though – the color is so green, and it will be soft and warm for the still cold mornings.
Tomorrow I have knitting group – I’m looking forward to spending some time knitting and chatting. I’m not sure what else I’m doing, but I think I’m ok with a lot of relaxing (and napping). OK, off to have dinner…have a wonderful weekend!