I am having a hard time with stress this week. Work has been beyond stressful – too much to do, not enough time to do any of it well. Most of my days have been in one meeting after another – and each meeting brings more things to do. I normally handle high pressure/stress well, but not for weeks at a time. By Thursday, I was on overload. Cieara went out with a friend to the mall, so Larry and I went out to dinner. I met him at a restaurant, and I was so stressed and hyper that I ordered and ate my meal in less than 30 minutes. And talked the whole time. Without breathing. I’m still not sure what I ate. Part of the stress is the holiday – I’m still not done shopping and of course, there is the issue of the eternal shawl.
So I decided that I needed to take a step back, and figure out what’s important – what needs to be done right away, and what can I do to manage the rest. At work, I listed everything I have going on, figured out more realistic timelines, talked to my boss, and ended up with a still enormous project load, but one that I can probably handle. Personally? Shopping this weekend should finish it off, and then refocusing on taking time for me and the family.
Knitting? As I said in the last post, the shawl was starting to be a punishment and I just hated that. I love the yarn, love the pattern, and am excited about finishing it and gifting it. But the deadline? Not happening. So last night, I ordered a gift to be shipped to the person I’m making the shawl for. That way I don’t have a deadline – if I finish it in time, great. And if not, that’s fine too. I just needed to get the pressure off. I will never (repeat never!) do this again – no more Christmas knitting for me. If I do ever make someone something for Christmas, it will be either started very early, or just coincedence that I finish it around the holiday. Knitting is supposed to help me de-stress, not add to it. After I placed the order last night, I immediately felt a huge load lift. And I rummaged through the stash and started this:
Aaahhhh…..wonderful, eh? This is the Zen Green yarn from Sophie’s Toes. Not much done on it because last night I started the Conwy socks from Knitting on the Road, but this morning I decided the pattern wasn’t right for the yarn and frogged it (I actually had a couple of inches done). I am now making a cable pattern from Sensational Knitted Socks – I think it will be much nicer for this yarn. I really needed the break, and to start something with some of the new yarn I bought. This yarn is beautiful – the colors are just amazing. This is the second thing I’ve knit with Emily’s yarn, and I really like it. If you are looking for nice hand-dyed yarn, check out her Etsy shop. (By the way, she has a really cute Santa baby hat pattern on her blog if you have a baby to knit for).
So today is the holiday party for my meetup group (another reason I wanted something simple to knit), and I’m looking forward to it. I think about 13 people are coming, and we are having a grab bag (yea! new yarn!). I really enjoy these women – spending time with people who share the same interest (obsession) is just so wonderful. Definitely will help me de-stress. After that we are supposed to go to the mall, but I’m starting to think that perhaps a nice peaceful day would be better and push the mall to tomorrow (this is probably why I’m not done shopping – I just hate the mall at Christmas time). We’ll see – I am just not going to let all of this get to me anymore.
I hope you all have a nice, stress-free weekend! I know I plan to!
Update – I just read Stephanie’s post from yesterday, and feel guilty. Sometimes I really need a good smack upside the head. I’m whining about stress, work, holidays and knitting. And yet? I have a house, food, family, job, medical insurance, money. We do contribute to charity, but honestly? Not as much as we should. Hmmm….I’ll be making a donation today. And when I’m tempted to whine about the “problems” I have, I am really going to try and remember the millions of people who actually do have problems.